the effect of mos ice milk tea is still very effective on me.. despite waking up at 530 today.. still kind of awake at this moment.. so i guesss.. like what I did each year.. mayb i'll look back in the year 2008..
2008... a year of a fatter weaker and older me..started with one of the most memorable way of celebrating... it was the outing with ning joel ken and jc.. we rented a car..the whole process of buying food for steamboat..how the steamboat was spoilt and we went to my hse to pick up my steamboat and then to the awaiting of the first sunrise of 2008 at changi beach.. felt tt everything was qt nice.. tho we haven been meeting up for a long time tgt.. but it was definitely a good interaction time with them ..(wonder how will this year's new year eve be like)
then it was the sch term... with the very super xiong yr 3 after a long period of relaxation during IA... felt tt i was qt fortunate to get closer with pple like ah huay aw and hanwei(amd of cos ms eclair).. those days when we went to nihon mura.. go for supper aft some muggings and the mind cafe aft shell visit was indeed memorable... tho i noe tt some of us have diff definition of frens.. some thinks tt frens are jus pple who crosses each other path at tt particular time while some thinks tt frens are companions for life... but i think i truly understand wat pple mean by the duration is not impt.. its the quality at tt time tt is the most essential... i'll nv forget this.. and i still find it qt funny tt i experience this kind of hall life.. when im in yr3... and not forgetting the times with hall peep... like wat i always say.. i'm really qt sorry tt i had to show u all the tired side of me.. or not being able to be so on... but still to joy and pj.. thx for not giving up on me by coming here frequently and disturb me tho im like always rushing for my assignments or lab report... also.. i had a very understanding roomie.. who listens to 933 when she does not speaks much mandarin while the more chinese me is listening to 98.7 instead... i guess being my roomie is seriously not a very good thing.. cos u will always feel tt u are slacking(cos im always doing my work).. and the most unforgettable thing is tt during the last day of exams.. i only slp at 5 in the morning.. and i had 2 papers in a row! whats still amusing to me is tt i manage to go for dinner with hall pple without feeling total seh...
then its the holidays... which was quite bad cos i fainted twice in 3 mths... first was aft sentosa trip while the other one was when i had a deep cut in my shin... its june 30th.. the day when i have my scar at my right shin... no matter how suey i am.. im always fortunate to have my besties ard me when im in all these trouble... thanks to tyy pj n peifang for accompanying me to the AnE dept.. i guess soon u all will be trained to deal with someone who faint so frequently like me.. oh and the teng teng part was really qt funny.. tho i was like semi conscious...
then to the happy part... went to bintan with kuan to celebrate our bdaes.. tho it may sound abit les and qt brave cos two girls are there only.. but i guess the urge to run away from city life beats any other worries tt can come into the picture.. indeed.. it was a good experience for us to spend quality time with each other(sounds abit wrong tho haha) and its a good chance to get a feel of how thiings can go so slowly actually.. tho the same 24hr per day.. but it feels like its a totally diff 24 hr... the scenaries were indeed very nice... esp the sunsets and the sunrise in the morning...and since we were there during some non peak period.. there were only 4 pple in tt keloong(tt includes us and an old couple)... we were treated as if we are some royalties... like when u wanna eat then u jus go to the eating pl the time u wan n pple then start cookin for u... it was qt sad tho tt the two nites tt we stayed are very cloudy... so my dream of seeing tons n tons of stars failed... n.. the accident prone me cut my hand.. it was bleeding profusely and i really felt super demoralised cos nothing seems to be happening the good way for me this year... but the lucky me still have kuan ard who tended my wound and cleaned up the mess for me.. the walls were splashed with my blood as if some murder has taken place and the wound was bleeding non stop for 1+ hr despite the fact tt i held it high and exert some pressure on it... at tt moment i really tot of jus going hm but luckily i din.. else i will regret everything...
then it was the bkk trip... seriously i nv tot tt i will go overseas twice in one vacation... tho its not some expensive grand trip.. but i felt really happy to be going to this.. it was really an impromptu trip... from cameron highland to KL then a sudden jump to bangkok... the pple are really good travel pals... the guys looking out for the gers while the gers are not draggy or too high maintenance(like hiaming this n tt).. it was good cos everyone put in effort in finding out the places tt are nice and really spend time to seek out the best hotels... i think i will nv forget abt this trip at least for the next 3-4 years.... n seriously i love the feeling of travelling because.. u can spend without thinking much(cos i always have in mind tt i may nv go to tt pl and so.. i mus not regret in anything).. u need not think abt work.. the time when u uses ur brain the most is when u are doin conversion from baht to sing dollar... ah.. i really enjoy those times....and... luckily... there's not accident on me when im in thailand! i was really scared tt i may spoil their mood if anything happen to me when we are there...
then.. back to reality.. the first sem of AY08/09 was qt boring i can say.. not very sure if its my perception of work has changed once again to allow me to be more serious or mayb everyone is too busy with their fyp... somehow i din really go out tt much in the sem... din even have a decent mj session with my kakis and worst is that i din go for any KTV! and the only time tt i went i think i was so off form tt i forgot wat to sing.. the usual emo expressive me when i sing seems to be gone.. not sure why oso...my term break was also delicated to fyp which was super duper sad... and so the sem flew past jus like tt... without me realising it and many thigns changes...
n... during examinations period... i fainted once again! this time it was due to gastric flu... it was really very irritating because when i wanna do something decent... i have weird things come out.. luckily i have understanding design grp mates.. cos seriously i think i contributed nothing for the last proj... sighz.. sorry frens...
so 2008.. a time when/with
intense changes i felt.. within me and around me...
couples breaking up(even those tt we thought are very lasting)while new couples getting tgt(while me staying constant in this area)..
i got to noe more pple while losing contact with some good old frens...
i start to see certain true colours of some pple which i can hardly forgive anymore...
i sacrificed many things for my fyp..
i cried at least twice during fyp cos i was feeling very helpless(somehow the tears jus went beyond my control)..
when my weight went increasingly out of control...
i realise my health is failing drastically..
i think i have finally accepted the fact tt i can no longer play competitive vball(have i?)...
vball is a total leisure sports to me...
an old fren is married(i hope she's very xing fu now.. tho.. i guess somethings have gone wrong one way or another and created misunderstandings time n time again... )..
i really felt tt everyone has moved on to some things or greater heights while im still staying stagnant struggling like a child...
i really gave up believing in meeting someone whom is fated to be the one( somehow i really think tt my fate will be very similar to my mom's.. guess those who are closer to me will understand)..
i look back.. i think i missed out certain details (i think im really too careless) and somethings might be too late now..
aft playing a game of vball.. my only wish is tt i can climb up the stairs as usual...
i start to avoid staircase and i only take the L1 of a double decker...
i realise im already a yr 4 and i will be in the working world in half a years time(it seems really like ydae when i was still in jc thinking abt wat course shd i go to.. ive nv tot tt i will end up in this field n i can like it)..
oil prices rise to 140 n drop to 40 per barrel within 6 mths...
the 2nd round of depression is here..
Beijing held Olympics(it was so funny.. thinkin back tt in 2001 when dhs went to beijing we signed the banner to congrat beijing for getting olympics... n.. back to 2004..how we followed the Olympics in greece and think how will we be like 4 years later)...
how pple lost faith in food n everyone became so consious abt they are taking in.. takin good note of the source of teh raw materials
i had more interactions with grandma.. having a good chance to talk to her while she stayed at my place
i think i lost confidence/interest in singing
discover my new interest for photography(tho the pictures tt i took is not zai la)
lost total confidence in how i look
beginning to wonder why do i like jay for such a long time
starting to feel the disappearance of stars of our time.. like david tao..
hearing pple saying tt mayday is no longer a hip thing(but i still love their songs!)
realise tt it was 5 years ago tt i was in jc..
ok.. think the reflections seem to be qt a sad one in overall... anw... our dear ah neo is featured in hey gorgeous! really happy for her.. hope she dun be too auntie.. and jiayou ger! i will vote for ya! heh... n update ur blog pls!