knee ache..tooth ache.. heart ache... oh wellz.. tt's wat i can use to describe the past two weeks.. anw.. think i shud tok abt the sulzer idol which i took part last tue.. haha.. yea.. its sulzer idol.. sometimes i really feels tt the ia company tt im in is quite happening.. haha.. .with sports day.. family day.. sulzer idol.. and coming up..the dnd... all along im tempted to join.. hahaz.. cos i noe sometimes i do enjoy the attention when pple hear u sing.. the claps tt they give aft u sing.. i do enjoy the 2nd presentation at ADM singing hui jia on the stage... its another kind of enjoyment which i got other than playing vball... and so.. with the temptation of a samsung mp4.. haha.. i decided to join on tt day.. oh wellz.. here goes...dun laff.. cos i think i really off tune for some parts...
yupx! actually i dun understand y the camera man took this part cos i felt that the back part of the song is nicer cos tt's where the climax is.. oh wellz.. the biasness i feel... student ma.. so dun get to have the whole song recorded.. oh wellz... hmm.. frankly.. i felt tt i sang well besides the front part which i uploaded... so at least i deserve something rite? oh wellz.. maybe i have a big ego.. but.. in the end out of the 6 prizes i got none.. feeling kind of sad la.. not tt i din win the prize.. but its the politics of the real world tt is making me sick.. cos its like.. who will give prize to a student.. whom.. have no contributions to a company? wellz.. think tt's very gullible for me to join in the first place... but still.. think i still noe this world quite well.. cos when they were giving out the prizes and teh pple ard me were saying.. u'll surely get this n tt.. u were better than the who who who... the ans tt i have in mind was tt.. hmm i dun think they will let this student here benefit.. oh wellz.. maybe the onli reason is tt wat i wore was cui..ok.. fine...
but still.. wat happens aft tt makes me quite gan dong... the emcees.. both from sales.. were like complaining... kelong one la.. and tt i sang very well... and also.. the nex day.. mayling's dept were like qtnin the few judges like why i din get anything.. everyone was telling me not to be disappointed cos of this.. n tt i did very well.. haha.. tt day i felt so gan dong.. oh wellz.. tho i din get anything.. i still got back the experience rite? cos aft gv 17's presentation.. i tot i will nv get on stage to sing anymore(sadly)...and of cos.. all those who cheered for me ..esp.. heh.. think wats more impt are u all...
and besides the disappointment with the real world, that night was super fun!(cos i think partially its the ktv ..haha).. Ding's performance is legendary.. wahahhaha..think he shud not be an engineer.. maybe he shud go into the entertainment industry.. hahaz.. the videos not with me now.. when i've got time mayb i'll upload the champ and ding's performance... wahhaa... besides tt.. we danced the nite away and of cos.. lots of cheering and shoutings.. it was a memorable night actually.. and tt's when i feel i've fallen in love with IA.. how i wish time can stop here... so i wouldn't need to part with these pple....
with regards to certain things.. i couldn't believe i said something.. but im glad i did tt.. at least i wun waste effort on tt... not like the time back in sec 4.. total cuiness... n... i dun feel anything at all after tt.. its either wat i think i feel is wrong.. or.. im already prepared for tt.. but wellz.. i thank the frankness and directness and openess.. maybe its better to stay as frens...
and.. went to villa bali near PSA with ning joel jc n ken! it was really a nice place for chilling out with frens... nice food.. n nice apple martinee(i wonder why i always feel so awake aft tt).. shall upload the photos nex time.. went to vivo for ben n jerry's.. and we went to the top level for some heart to heart talk! its nice thinkin back the times we've spent together.. countless christmas eves and we spent 2 new year's eve together... the teachers.. the pple.. where are they now... the good old times.. the trips tt we went.. like the 5-pple bbq and the rainy-day sentosa trip... the things we did at ning's place.. badminton... marinating of chicken.. videos.. stayovers.. ice cream cake...countless fotos tt we took.. and the changes in us.. and so we've spent 8 years together with one another but def some weird pauses cos we simply lost contact..but def more years to come.. i really love you guy's company...=D
many things happened for the past week..but wellz.. i guess the most saddening things is regarding my kneecap ba... perhaps its really time for me to say good bye to my love that has accompanied me for abt 8 years.. ive met my decline and wellz.. maybe they can only be part of my memories... so wellz.. this entry will be abt my vball life throughout these 8 years...
1999-2000:
sec 1.. have nv thought that i will be in any sports team due to my weight... all along my thinking was.. wats the big deal of being tall... if u are fat nobody will wan u inside... oh wellz.. furthermore after being in choir for the whole of 6 years in primary sch, im all ready to go into choir once again... i could still rem that inside the cca form i wrote choir and tt's my onli choice.. i really tot tt im in choir...
so to my surprise.. i was in vball... got to know lina weijing ven lynette yiling as my teamates... those times were the most tiring times i guess... every sat is pt pt and pt... wan super fit... i think we could run 20+ rounds the vball court... at tt time i din noe joy tyy n yirong yet.. in my mind.. i was thinking.. hey..whats up with these three pple.. why are they having special privileges? like they are in the team first.. they can play first... and why is there a malay in the team?? but her chinese was like super zai... wahaha..tt's joy... i really cannot imagine tt we will be tt close till now...
aft their east zones.. the three joined us for trainings.. tt was when the real training starts... everything was so new.. its like when u see this senior is doing this.. you'll "wow" one time.. haha.. then sometimes u wonder.. why is it tt when u jump up u nv get the timing rite while the others can whack it like so good.. and u'll wonder why... why u can nv get the vball up in the correct direction... lots of whys and how... every training i'll set goals for myself.. what do i wanna learn.. wat can i do...actually im very proud of this team.. throughout tt year.. we went to different frenly matches and gained diff exp.. how we went back to peichun to train.. how we play with the kids... how we went to lor 7 market to eat duck rice.. oh wellz.. and def goin to lim's hse to watch videos relating n not relating to vball... tt's where i got to noe grease and micheal jackson better...and of cos.. all the conflicts inside.. saying lim's favouritism and stuff... all the cryings and everything....and of cos.. the trainings with the guys.. how ah lim pair 1 ger n 1 guy together.. i was so stunned and guilty when i was making zhangyuan running all over... and of cos.. i was wondering.. why he never misses a ball? hahaha...
and so we went to east zones... our way of playing was really one of the better ones... with tall pple.. we even had 2 men blocking when jing n i were in front... the feeling of how u are able to block lots of balls.. regardless of spiking n dropping is so shuang.. its as if u are able to outwit the person opp and also.. it takes the guts to do it...how everyone clapped for u.. but def.. the confidence it not there.. how u can miss the ball.. serving balls into the net n out of the court... the guilt and the sorryness we felt for the team... so in the east zones.. despite the lost to chung cheng high....we emerged as champions for east zones...it was really a tough fight.. but def a memorable one... and we entered nationals... keeping our morales high.. and saddening.. yirong's feel down and our main player is lost... lina tried her best but still.. we lost and got nat 2nd instead... it was really so near yet so far... but it was really a good experience in tp stadium... with everyone cheering for u... i enjoyed tt feeling actually...
2001-2002
wellz.. i do not know why but somehow my memory of sec 3 n 4 vball wasn't very clear.. perhaps i did not really try my best.. or maybe we did not really excel in nationals.. things were jus like-tt to me..and it all ended blurly for me...
2003
my entry to hc! first time playing in the same team with mel weiling xinhui wanyu yuhong shikai zihui(hope i dun miss out anyone)... the seniors are superb... you'll feel so welcomed by them.. esp when i partner mel during the gang qiu.. she really impresses me by how she gets every ball up.. the diving n perserverance... learnt alot from her.. and of cos.. during the times when i hurt my back.. how she came over to the sick bay to pass me ham n cheese toast... and talking to me.. was so touched by her.. yr 1 was another phase which i enjoyed myself alot.. how we went thru the diff teams.. and of cos.. the song.. time of my life(was our mass dance song)... how we sang it in hall aft our trainings... it was really the gelling of the team..... but still... we lost to nyjc in the finals at tp stadium.... again.. it was so near yet so far... sighz...din cry on tt day but i could still rem the day aft.. during our harmoc practice in hall.. tyy n i went out to cry... it was aft the song colours of the wind... i really love that white and yellow sleeveless jerseys
and of cos.. the maf spent with the guys team was one of best one... how we surround tt table busy doing our own test tube leaving pple wondering ard us.. thinking of whether we are selling anything... yupx.. and despite of engrossment with our own stuff... we managed to earn a few bucks! hahha.. it wasn't any lost
2004 aft tt it was time to pick up ourselves... selection of the captain.. and... unknowingly.. i was selected as the captain.. was in total shock cos all along i tot yirong will get it.. i was so used to it... cos all along in dunman she's been the cap and i really wonder how would the situation be like if its a role switch.... i could rem clearly how she went off st away mel declared the cap.. i could not even concentrate during the physics lect st after we noe the result... i can still rem tt we were in the audit.. qifan congratted me.. while in my mind i was thinkin.. wat am i supposed to do? can i jus reject this? oh wellz.. but mel told me tt it's everyone's choice and i have to jus do it.. and so.. i tried to do wat a captain is supposed to do... conflicts.. esp with the lateness issue.. and of cos.. some of the ways of managing.. like PTs and everything... diff pple have diff ways of seeing things.. and there is no single solution for everything.. its a matter of letting go of the less impt one.. and of cos lots of self consciousness.. cos now.. its no longer how i play.. its how to keep the team's morale up... and pple's dedication... how i approach pple to tell them they are not in the main team... oh wellz.. .its was really a diff experience....but still.. tt's when we got to noe dora(lingwei),yingyi jiayan and peixian... we din do very well in tt year... got 3rd instead... the last match was with nyjc again.. and i rem everyone was down with flu... tt marks the end of college vball for me.. no more chances of goin back to tp stadium to play finals again...
2005 under 19... was busy with hse moving and i fell very ill tt time... missed the chance of wining top two.. guess partially its my fault tho...wasn't able to play up to std with the lack of trainng and constantly sick body... but i was determined to
2006 joined ivp.. oh wellz... kind of bored cos it felt more like some burden playing the type of vball tt i dun like... the coach was super cui.. cos he nv teach us anything when we played.. like when u are losing some pts... as a coach u shud do something to it rather than watch it happen right... tt was why i quit in the next year...
opens was cuied too... sprained my ankle badly and for the first time.. i need sub in the first set... sadly.. moral all lost cos i can say tt its quite rare for me to spike balls into the net.. and during tt time i can sae.. i jus simply nua.. hate tt feeling when u can't really control ur movement wellz...
2007 went to be linesman for fivb beach volley world tour... it was really an eye opener... i feels so honoured to be able to be linesman for the finals.. its like.. we are on tv! hahhaz... but sadly.. fainted durng this period of time... another decline in my health...
regarding playinh..felt tt i played better this time round in the open in terms of attacking.. but oh wellz... my receiving is all gone... its very demoralising cos it really takes away ur confidence of even getting a simple ball....and i guess.. this team isn't goin to continue nex year..
IVP.. went back to ivp.. so when i was starting to see my attackin improve.. my kneecap got injured...but i guess my presence wasn't tt impt.. cos there are lots of pple who can take up my position in the main team... and i guess.. maybe its time for me to make my leave ba..
yupx.. throughout these 8 years.. vball has thaught me alot... seriously its really growing up with it.. from the attitude of learning new things to the peak and then to the decline... it gave me more confidence(which i think i still lacks now) in myself which i totally lack before i go into it... it gave me a new way of seeing things and managing stuff... it gave me laughter and tears.. memories which really allows me to tell me children abt it.. hahaz.. if i have any...
went to watch 881 with mom..went with some doubts like will there be any language barriers since most of it will be like hokkien and i do not know hokkien personally... so its like will i end up huhing for the nex 1 hour plus... also with all the adverds with the shiny costumes.. i start to think tt will it be too"over" tt its too unrealistic?
and the answer is... the show is simply too nice!! haha.. royston tan did not disappoint me at all(was very impressed with him durin the time when he came to hc to gave us talk)... with the start of how he illustrates the life of the two papaya girls..how it started and how it ended.. and that the xiao mu gua will end at 25..wonder if anyone catches it.. cos my ma was like so confusd with his style of explanation...oh wellz i think he is zai.. cos.. its a movie which already tells us the ending of the show.. but yet.. u wun feel bored at all while watching and u will still feel like watching it.. it does not even have the element of surprise(the sort like 卖关子) to capture ur attention becuase u wanna find out wat will happen in the end...
some of the few things in this show which i love...
the start when he only uses the boards to illustrate how the pple in the 木瓜姐妹come in and disppear in their lives..
the one when the mu gua sisters went to see the XXX-goddess(forgot the exact name)... the wonder of linking all the song names together to express their feeling... hahhaa.. i was laughing like mad there lohs.. but seems like im the onli one... think i've got a weird sense of humour....
how he describe the lives of the two girls as they carried on with their singing... it was something like 她们跑太比谁都快,大木瓜和家里越跑越远,而小木瓜则是和时间赛跑。
the colourful bling bling feel at with the "goddess"...feels lame yet i love it... hahah.. and also the one with them in the underwater... very 梦幻 i feel...
the one when the two sisters are hugging each other.. and the camera starts to move ard them... when 小木瓜's hair was dropping while 大木瓜's dressing and everything is the same...with them singing the song that is relating to somebody who had terminal illness ..i interpreted it to show that he is trying to say that 小木瓜 passed away very fast... like how 大木瓜stayed the same(the time is too short for any big changes in a person) while 小木瓜's hair dropped more n more each day(indicating how sick she gets day after day)...also.. the time between she dies and she's in hospital is abt a song's time(which is relatively short)..the song is also very saddening.. tho its in hokkien but the music and the lyrics translated in chinese is enough for me to cry...
also i cried in the part when 小木瓜 was asking and finding out whats up with 大木瓜 and the person that she likes... the 无奈 there when she knows that she cannot be with him tho she love him too..
the one which qi yuwu was talking at the end... like how he look forward to lunar 7th month because that's the only time when all of them can meet each other .. see each other..i was like crying until mad at this pt.. ma was also crying badly.. somehow.. my perspective for lunar 7th month has changed...cos as we grow older we face more deaths.. u see more relatives or frens who passed away... the 7th lunar mth is more of a "reunion" for ur loved ones who have passed away...
and last but not least.. the last scene.. when qi yu wu was looking thru the photos..(if im not wrong.. there are close-up photos of 小木瓜..cos..pple are already moving out.. really quite distracting and i wasnt able to see clearly what are those)... and this gave us an answer of what qi yu wu is taking with his old cam everytime when the papaya sisters are singing... and also.. his 无奈of not being able to be with 小木瓜 and not accepted by her(cos she know's tt she has not much time left)tho she's his true love after all(a coincidence with his father whom got together with the younger twin sister when he loved the elder sis more)....
everything ended with me crying like mad for the first time at least for this year... initially i thought tt i no longer feel for anything... like i wun cry anymore in movies... and yet... i cried like siao jus now... to my memory.. i can't really recall when was the last time i cried tt badly...it was really a nice combination of music and story.. actually they sing alot even when they are acting.. somesort of hokkien musical i guess... and so.....