sometimes u will just get disgusted by some competitive pple.. whom gets so engrossed on whether u learn more than her or progresses faster than her.. and when she did more... lies were made to cover for them... come on la.. not everyone is as competitive as u.. so even if u progress further jus admit it.. there's no need to make up lies for it... think i really can't stand pple who lie jus because they are scared tt others will catch up with them..but still..im sad for them.. imagine tt throughout the nex few decades.. u will be so engrossed abt whether other pple are better than u... u will be so busy comparing urself with the others and match up with those u think are useful to u... maybe u can get to where u have set urself to..maybe u have finally reach other pple's level.. but i guess throughout the process.. u'll lose certain things.. like urself n every other thing besides work.. oh wellz.. maybe they are not impt to u...
boreddddd... wat a gloomy monday with nothing to do and of cos monday blues.. sianz.... life is so boring these days... everything seems to be repeating itself n ive got no mood to initiate any interaction with anyone.. think im living in my own shell again.. but sometimes the feeling of being alone is quite nice.. haha.. but the thing is tt after being with yourselve for too long.. u might jus be too lazy to do things like appearing online on ur msn.. or even when u are online u are too lazy to msg anyone.. oh wellz...
its been 1 mth since the last time i played vball.. oh wellz... too much of something isn't good... neither is it better if there's too little of something... 1mth ago was feeling so tired and sianz by the trainings and injuries... felt tt my body had no time to rest itself.. and that this adds on to the deprovement in my playing... and now.. everything has stopped.. my body got to rest.. and im glad tt i felt better for my knee(tho im pretty sure tt im not fit for any vigourous exercise yet)..able to walk faster now.. but i guess i can't rush certain things.. else the reverse might happen...
oh wellz.. ydae had a dream... i dreamt tt i was serving a jump serve.. it was the right touch.. the right timing.. and it was an ace.. woohoo.. that feeling is simply so nice.. to be able to jump without any reservations... however.. the dream did not continue with a second service.. i duno why.. oh wellz... i must be missing this feel..
sometimes its jus so weird that things can come all at the same time and leave all at the same time... b4 my injury.. was busy for trainings and goin out.. out of the 5 days.. none of them i took a woodlands bus back(woodland bus means that im goin hm)... everyone seem to be asking u out despite the busy schedule u have and everything seems to be a commitment to u... and now.. everyone simply disappeared with vball... im like going hm everyday... things are really not balancing up the correct way... sianzzzzzz...
n somebody initiated to msg on msn after 1 mth of escapism from me aft tt incident by not goin online too often or appearing offline..bad things seem to happen all at the same time then... i guess he must be thinking what has spurred me in telling him at tt time.. oh wellz.. i shall ans it now.. firstly its my leg n secondly i saw someone again which reminds me that i do not want history to happen again...oh wellz.. guess that he will nv noe these truth behind it...n so.. he decided to msg me again..(i guess its to check whether im stil living well aft wat had happened..to make himself feel better).. and so it goes with a hey from him.. and a heyz from me.. an awkward silence for roughly 5 min which is not very normal of him to stop at jus a hey... luckily its not in real time.. else.. kill me manz.. ahahha..
so i tried to be normal and asking wat i normally ask.. n after some time it seems fine... n i asked some dumb qtns again.. abt some gers.. oh wellz... he seems pretty sad again.. n im asking him to cheer up... faints.. why am i always doin these.. seriously i duno.. but it all seems fine as the conversation goes on.. oh man.. its jus so weird la... and so after sometime.. he went off... i guess he must be smiling to himself... cos he need not feel so guilty afterall.. on his road to be a better person.. ya rights....but stilll... all the best for him to tt ger la...
miss vball.. tho its been 2 weeks only.. the spikings and shoutings can only be part of my memories..sighz.. i need more distractions other than sleeping...and of cos accumulated log book, JLPT 4 and 2 story books..