been fairly busy this week.. went for meetings and catching up with old frens like guan and yiling.. not much time to really sit down to talk much tho but still.. we managed to meet up with each other!
ydae was a scary day for me.. haha.. went to learn blading with clar qx and lh..throughout my life i've nv tried roller blade and ice skate b4.. and my balancing skills is CUI.. the feelin on the blades is so scary.. so insecure like u no longer can control where u wanna go.. haha.. so its like a small step means a big step to me.. and so.. its onli a small stretch of route.. but i fell for more than 10 times.. worst is tt i duno how to fall front! kept falling on my butt(guess its too heavy there.. hahaha..).. and now ended up with this big patch of blue black on the right side of my butt.. and i think i still did not get the feel of traveling with the blades.. one day i will master it k! hahaz
oh wellz.. hols is ending in 1 days time.. so sad.. tml goin back sch for meeting and tt will be the start of camp.. will be MIA for the rest of the week.. and 9th july will be the first day of IA! sianzzz... reporting at 830 at boonlay.. BOONLAY... tt scary place again.. there goes my sleep...
went to adm with neo and tyy tonite! hahaz.. ya. these 2 nus pple actually siao with me..agreed to go adm with me.. hahaz.. went to neo''s hse to play mahjong and researched on the bintan trip.. then aft sakae they actually agree to go back ntu with me! haha.. so surprised cos these two are usually being sianed diao by the distance..
yupx.. and so.. the revisiting of adm was quite a different from the last time i went up with miss joy(tho both are so nice and relaxing).. this time there wasn't a whole sky of stars..there were onli 2 visible ones and a moon which was slightly covered by the clouds.. din noe tt the overcast sky can be quite beautiful at night.. maybe its because the lights from tuas that creates a reddish feeling on the sky.. the clouds look like cotton wool(3D.. some seem to be so near yet some so far).. and they are can be anything if u can imagine them! hahaz
i love the cool breeze..love the the open big sky and definitely the slope.. shall find some day when i can catch all the stars on the sky.. heez
so let me have a check on the things i wanna/have already done in the hols
1. adequate sleep! 2. ktv 3. sentosa 4. vball 5. star gazing at adm 6. shopping! 7. bintan 8. read a good book 9. dvds and shows! 10. fivb world tour 11. mahjong! 12. Pulau ubin 13. catching up with old frens 14. relax relax and relax!
yupx.. so the past two days has been quite refreshing for me.. cos i got to relax and felt the moment of freedom.. hee...time to chiong for camp and IA! =D
saw him at paradiz centre today.. at first i wasn't able to recognize him at all.. "he can't be that thin".. that's wat i told myself.. but the shirt was wat i recognize and the features are there.. oh manz.. wat has happened? why has he lost so much weight?! but i din dare to approach and sae hi.. cos i duno how to continue with the conversation.. duno what shuld i sae to be appropriate.. how is he feeling now? what has happened to him? but all i noe is to hide and tried not to be spotted.. i was hopin that i wun be spotted tho...but i really dun understand this feeling..
sometimes.. when i think of it.. i really wonder how is our friendship like.. or is there any friendship in it? i really duno.. but as i saw how depressed he is.. i really feel like helpin.. but how do i help when i dun even noe wat has happened or anything.. and who am i to help? we are not like close frens who will call each other out to sit down and have a good talk.. we are not tt sort who will even sms each other and ask abt things.. everything is jus on msn.. yea.. its msn again.. which make me think.. who am i to him to help? maybe im not even a good fren to him.. maybe he thinks tt im too young tt i duno how to help.. i duno.. but i oso duno how to start offering any help.. cos i dun think i can even handle it..*sighz.. the feeling of.. u wanna do something and yet u jus duno how to is bad.. i really hate this..
busy busy weekends.. started off with clarice's 21st bdae..went to miss clarity cafe to celebrate... whoa.. the food there is nice.. had this chicken stuffed with ham and cheese.. yummy! aft tt went to minds cafe.. played this new game call saboteur.. quite nice tho we din had much time for the boss.. too many pple out there so the waiter got no time to teach us how to play tt...so here are the fotos
the bdae ger!
linda and clarice
that is my stuffed chicken
the grp
miss clarice with her watch
the couple of the grp..going strong..
the trio
with her cake
yupx.. aft that was the seniors camp.. everything went off quite well with the costumes quite ok(din slp at all on sat doin tt lo!).. nice makeup good casts for fright nite.. tho the pple who comes do not really appreciate wat we've done.. sigh.. jus hope tt the fright nite is a more successful one..and i dun get lost in the way! =D
then beach games was quite ok.. no rain at all for tt day.. tho quite sian diao with the games that im incharged of.. maybe we shud take it out.. it seems jus too off...
and so now.. im enjoying peace and the time on my own.. finally.. switching on my speakers.. enjoying the songs that i like.. doin the things i wanna do.. everything has got no deadline and i got to slp until watever time i can! no alarm clocks.. heez... this is really wat i call..HOLIDAY.. yes.. somehow tt greenday song kept ringin in my mind.. hahaz..
its just so funny that u'll always get to see the pple whom u least expected it(or u dun feel like seeing them) or u always don't get to see them when u feel like seeing them the most.. maybe fate is playin a game on me..
hahaz..signs of escapism again.. but after readin biao's entry abt the recent outin.. had some gan chu.. seriously come to think of it.. we've been frens for almost a decade.. the times at 1H was so happy.. from the very young us to now.. the uni us.. can't really forget the first midautumn festival.. think it was my fav mid autumn throughout my life(perhaps the one at J1 was quite memorable too).. if biao u read this.. do u still rem urself as the dao you kor kor.. haha.. those time we were so innocent and funny .. that when u think of it again.. those were really sweet memories.. and the times when ning and i jus go to sch early early in the morning.. jus to put down our bags in the class.. and go to the monkey bar area to talk.. to sing.. to wait for the sun to come out.. how we chiong to parkway everytime jus to eat the long john's(which is now being replaced by crystal jade)..how we went to ning's hse to play badminton.. how we try to get to ning but everytime when we call her.."aining? pls hold on" does tt sound familier? haha..tt's her aunt..then aft a series of funny songs.. we finally got to reach ning.. and our badminton trip all the way to joo chiat CC i think.. the forever kallang mac trips after ken jc and me had our TAF club(haha..tt's is like so contradicting)..how we always ran in suntec cos ive got to rush home.. and of cos the long fone calls with joel(sad tho tt now we no longer talk tt much) ... so many things..those times were the times when jay was a newcomer.. pagers were in thing(i always type in the wrong character cos i lost count how many times i pressed).. discmans were quite facinating and huan zhu ge ge was so popular..kbox wasn't in yet.. movie tix were 5 bucks during weekdays and there wasn't channel U if im not wrong.. things which seem to be so normal tt time has actually turned out to be sweet fond memories now.. tho im may not be the first to noe ning's xin shi anymore.. may not call joel jus for nothin anymore.. i think im glad tt we still meet out often.. open to each other.. talked and have fun and listening to each other... 8 years.. we've grown up aren't we..
this was 1H foto i guess... hahaha.. we were so cute!!! can u spot us inside?!
definitely ning has grown prettier... biao look more matured.. ken and jc slimmed down..joel more hiao(and there are pple who say tt he's not bad looking.. haha.. which still can't be accepted by me) and me.. haha.. hair has grown longer?
did this for miss clarice for her bdae! with the help of miss tieo.. but still.. i did most of it oso k! heez
pls tell me that it is nice!haha.. cos the shop keeper says that its the nicest ever she saw among the customers! beamzzz... no wonder mich say im the boyfren type... haha too sweet laioz
i guess joy is right.. when certain stuff is draggin for too long.. u no longer feels for it.. realise tt certain stuff doesn't matter to me anymore.. and i dun feel anything anymore..i no longer have the urge to talk to ya.. no longer felt abit happy when i see ur sms..no longer feels like staying online..each day i put lesser n lesser attention on u.. perhaps there are too many things goin on ard me now.. tt this may seem jus so small n negligible.. guess there will be somebody nicer out there for me..
got back the results.. getting all the lows again.. GPA or wat they say caps in nus went down again.. dun really feel anything for it now.. jus a bit disppointed cos jap is also pullin me down..think there's not even chance for me to reach a second lower honours.. stuck in third class forever..
oh wellz.. this is supposed to be a holiday rite?! went to do props for cbe camp.. fright nite.. it was quite enjoyable tho.. esp during the nite when the casts are here for rehersals.. had a great laff esp during the part when clarence was acting as the dangkee and hanwei as the old man.. but felt quite happy.. cos the casts tt we get seems to be acting quite well.. suiting to the roles tt we've created.. but i really hate my social skills! dun really dare to talk openly.. maybe tt's y pple dun feel like tokin to me.. oh wellz.. i am who i am lahz.. this is the camp season n someone whom i have a crush on is back again.. haha.. nv fails to brighten up the day.. =D if only i dare to talk more...