sighz.. dun really have a good feeling abt vball.. are we gonna disband? after thinkin abt it.. its like..so many pple has left as the time goes by.. after doin a headcount.. i think.. maybe we are left with less than 10 peeps.. sighz..perhaps sometimes we have to let go.. even ah lim has thought abt it.. maybe we shudn't b tt stubborn afterall? maybe i though too much.. hopefully that's the case..
n...someone just reminded me tt heat n mass transfer he has already gone thru 100+ pages of the text.. oh great.. im seriously not aware of tt manz.. crazy la.. but seriously i still do not have tt motivation to mug.. is it becuase i rest too much during hols?
posted some of the fotos i took during the hols.. wellz.. this hols did nothing much.. except watchin some serials and playing vball.. some things im also not sure of what and how it will turn out..tho i think im irritating.. but i know im letting it off soon.. yupz.. once again its an infatuation.. no developments.. my theory is tt if a guy is interested in a ger.. he will definitely ask her out..somehow.. im rather tired of the game of guessing i think.. perhaps being frens is still the best way.. our character clashes at times.. i can really forsee that there will be lots of disagreements.. there will never be breakups in frens definitely.. and also.. most of the time i still have a mental barrier that size and looks do matter.. at first i tot i've gotten over it until the pt when ning jc ken joel and i are chatting at the starbucks outside ps one new year's eve 3 am.. it started with jc not feeling very optimistic abt his looks.. and ning was tryin to cheer him up.. then she looked over to my side and ask me..'do u think looks really matter?' i know she wanted me to say 'no' to cheer jc up.. but yet.. my reply was..' to a certain extent..yes..' tt was what i think at tt moment.. i can't lie to myself..anw my character does not shine at all.. oh wellz.. time to put it down and conc on my work.. find that i couldn't really conc well this week.. i hope its because its just the start of the week.. cos simply i felt tt i learn nothing much.. cannot rem anythin the lecturer says in the lt..
perhaps wat alvin says is right.. nobody will still be pretty at the age of 40.. ya... maybe i will have my first date when im 40.. haha.. shall drop the idea of finding the one b4 my 21st bdae.. to think tt i still believe in teh cinema tic tt i got with my fav jersey number on it..its such a joke manz.. child's play..
but wellz! felt that good things will happen this year! while ning and i are walking down the escalator on new year's eve.. both of us agreed tt this year seems to be much more better than last year.. last year while we were sitting at starbucks in suntec talking overnite.. all of us were quite moody or not as happy.. but this year seems to be diff.. may all the happy happenings start now!
pledge to b a full time mugger now! last sem grades were so yucky.. felt thankful for the electives that saved me tho..
went for this elective called language puzzle ydae.. wellz.. today's lesson is about human and animal language.. So what do we define language.. it is something which can help us to express our thoughts.. chinese language,sign language, music, body language are all languages.. then came this discussion regarding animal languages.. so is it possible for animals to communicate with humans one day? it is already happening now..
and so.. the prof showed us this video clip about this gorilla called koko.. from young, she has been trained to use american sign language to communicate.. besides knowing the different vocabulary,she is also able to put together all the vocabulary to form meaningful sentences.. so with this..she was able to express her feelings freely.. like the times when she's sad.. when she's angry.. when she's happy..she'll be able to show it freely and passionately.. especially penny.. who is the woman who taught her the sign language since she was born as a baby gorilla..and think they are more of frens just like human to human friendship... and to the cat.. its as if its her child.. koko even named it as ball(because she thinks that it looks like a ball)... and when ball was hit by the car... koko cried badly.. its the feeling of a lost of a good companion..
and i duno why.. while watchin this video.. i cried.. (hope nobody sees me tearing.. haha.. tt's so funny.. its just a video).. wellz.. i think its really amazing.. its communication without words.. and yet.. its so true and clear which most of us human beings can't do tt.. we are given the ability to talk because we need to communicate.. but yet.. with this ability.. most of us can't even express ourselves as freely and koko.. why cant we express our love anger sadness as freely as koko?? seriously im feeling kindof guilty too.. to see that how koko expresses her love to her fren.. i doubt i can show my care and concern for my mom that way.. like how koko expresses her sadness over the death of ball(the name that she gave to her cat).. i doubt i can show my sadness as freely as her .. its so funny.. we are given the best way to express ourselves and yet we cant.. sad huh...
then.. another question is.. are we humans really as superior as we think we are in the animal kingdom? what makes us different from them? perhaps its just our anthropocentric view of the world.. seriously i think we are no better than animals.. perhaps the only thing which distinguishes us from any other animals is that we are more able to destroy earth.. for so many years.. we try to find ways to improve our life.. building houses.. building factories.. killing other animals.. tryin to make up to the flaws that we have like inventing a plane because we do not have wings..but when we reach the bottomline.. each and single things that we do is causing harm to the earth.. like petroluem and stuff.. we are depleting the resources.. are we improving our lives? yes.. we get electricity.. but in return.. we get pollution and global warming.. yes.. we may have found certain ways to cure some terminal diseases.. but in return.. we maybe creating more alien problems.. like dna mutations and stuff..we always take from earth.. but.. what have we given back?does she owe us anything? So what makes us more superior than other animals? i really don't know.. all i know is that we are able to deplete earth at a much more astonishing speed than and other animals? sadly and ironically.. im oso one them.. typing all the crap as if im some environmentalist.. while im still using the hall's electricity like nobody's business...