why is it that sometimes when u need to concentrate on something u can find so many distractions but when u have came to a stop you feel that everything seems to be so boring to you.. --------------------post exam syndrome-------------------
its finally over over over! haha.. one month of mugging... insufficient sleep.. all... over!! haha.. can't believe that the three month holidae is really going to start soon... tho now feeling abit aimless... BUT! activities are coming up! heh heh.. anw..went to this place call mind cafe with a few of the tito peeps.. its a good place for chats n everything... also.. there are lots of fun games ard! board games blah blah..all that are not found in singapore.. we reach there at 3 and played until 6... think this game call the boss is the most fun one@ haha.. especially u have a bunch of pple who are willing to play.. haha.. wanted to go for 31's bbq after tt.. but.. from dhoby ghaut toeast coast.. very sian leh.. and... erm.. i duno how to mix well also... but at the end feel very bad.. cos.. promise already then pangseh pple.. tho its definitely going to rain over there.. aiyah dunno lah.. im not those who promise liao then pangseh one.. then tis time like tt.. haiz... tho i think they wun mind at all lah..whether we are there or not also lidat..
tue is going to be the first training for the kids camp thingy.. linda can't make it cos she have to go back sch.. and clarice have to move hall... haiz... feeling abit weird lehz... cos..haiz.. yi yan nan jing.. watever it is.. have to get used to it lah.. i can do it! n i'll be missing some trainings cos i will be overseas.. haiz.. training is tiring today.. almost sprain my leg lah.. sighz.. old liaoz.. but i do enjoy it... i really can't live without vball i guess... hahaz
a wise man learns from a fool more than the fool learns from the wise man... do u agree?
have you ever had a dream.. one that is so sweet that you wouldn't even want to get up and you wish that you can sleep forever thinking that the dream will go on and on? i did.. hope that it'll come true one day... hehz..
its one of the papers tt i'm scared of the most.. as the door opens, went in n found my seat... pencil case, hp, calculator, spects, water bottle, a stack of paper.. ......... wait.. a stack of paper? data booklet? foolscape? oh no... its notes... pengz... am i too stressed out siaz.. luckily i discover this before the paper starts... or else... i'll be expelled soon... hahha.. funny thing is ... i walk pass the prof twice n he din realise it... nobody realise it... perhaps i can just keep the notes.. maybe they'll think its data booklet too... hahaha.. n i'll pass with flying colours...
as i was waiting at the junction.. this cute little ger was looking at me so i just smile to her... and noe wat.. the mom said.. say hi to auntie........................
pengz! do i look so old??!!! haiz... wat a dae manz...
she was staring at the paper.. stuck at one qtn which she rem that she have studied for it.. after a long time.. she could not decide what to write down because what she wans is an answer.. she do not know where to start.. and so.. when the paper ended.. she handed that script.. without writing anything for that particular qtn.. she could have wrote some formulas in from the data boolket given n sub with any values(n she may get something from it)... but she din.. perhaps she's just a perfectionist.. without having in mind what is teh whole solution for that qtn.. she just refuse to write anything because she feels that her concept is not there...
anw..ydae while walking by boonlay mrt station got this uncle who was playinh the erhu.. as we walk from the newspaper stall to the control station n up to board the train.. we could onli hear him playing 2 notes.. yes.. basically.. do re ..re do..do re..re do...the uncle not sian one meh? hahhaa wonder anyone is aware of it? or everybody is just busy rushing to somewhere else? wellz
one more week to the 3 mths hols! yohoz! tho the coming papers are quite tough.. thermo n maths.. sighz.. n thermo... roughly saw the results for that quizz..35%.. out of 200+ pple.. im the last 30.. sianz.. what m i doin... i really duno what im doin!! arghzz
As he flipped the test paper, he paused and looked up.
Prof: I really don't know how to grade you me: Is it really that bad? All wrong? Prof: The concepts are wrong, and so are the calculations. But at least u did try. Me(Stared at the paper..thinking.. am i really that bad? what have i been doing?) Prof: What are you aiming for your exams? me: at least a B+ for every module cos last sem i did quite badly. Prof: Then i think you better come and look for me before the exams.You are really below average and the coming exam is going to be very tough
At that moment, i was really quite touched by the way he put it. Can see that he tries to put in effort to pull me back to the average. But, the word'way below average' kept appearing in my mind. What have i not done? What did i do wrong? or Im really not the material for this course? I don't know. Am i in the wrong course? But i do enjoy n appreciate what i study now. And people say that you can only do well if you like what you study. Is that always true? Why doesn't it apply to me? I really find that nothing has gone wrong but why i'm always doing so badly? I really hate the word'below average'. And is it possible for me to graduate without even having a proper cert? I don't wana waste my time here. I want a proper degree.AARRGGGGGHHHHHHH
sometimes things do appear right before u suddenly.. when u have least expected it..i almost forgot abt wat happen and now.. it reminds me again.. time flies seriously and thinkin back.. the 16 year old me was so dumb..it has been 4 years.. haha.. thinkin back really gives me a good laugh.. watever it is.. im glad tt im able to laugh at it now.. rather than feeling sad and confused over it.. perhaps time can do wonders.. hahaz.. anw.. i understand why that msg was sent to me tt time.. sometimes i do have great memory.. especially regarding certain stuff which i can't figure out..
sighz.. been lazing ard the whole morning today.. must have been the organic paper.. the big problem with me is that i need some time to get up from certain downs.. furthermore.. im always lagging.. no matter wat.. hope i can find the motivation again! mon is effective com n tue is biochem le.. thur mat sc..nex week tue thermo fri maths.. and yes! its the last paper le! so happy looking at the last day..tho i onli had one paper.. not even halfway thru.. boohoo...
boohoo! was sayin that mat sc quiz was a moral booster.. n.. today..oganic chem.. which is the first paper make me feel tt im nothing again... sighz.. wonder where has all the three day's hard work gone to... sianz... mental block again.. can't afford to flunk again leh... sighz...
also.. over dinner.. linda mention tt most prob she's withdrawing from the kids camp things.. hmmz.. hope clarice is staying.. or else.. will b quite bored leh... shall see how...
went parkway to study with clarice today.. hmmz.. something weird happen now.. which clarice n i dunno what to do.. linda has been missing these two daes! its like call her hse fone n hp both nobody pick up.. its like quite weird lah.. the fones keep on dialing but..nobody picks it up.. her hse shud have somebody there since her mom is a babysitter then she's always at hm... hmmz...
k.. two mroe days to organic.. so many reactions to study... my brain has got limited space lohz.. luckily mat sc is sort of a mini morale booster for me..finally.. for once.. i m above average... but.. its onli 7.5%.. we shall see.. k shall go mug organic now!
wellz.. so yesterdae marked the last day of the sem... wellz.. thinking back.. it has really been a hectic sem for me.. think i did lots of things... haha.. started with the ivp thingy.. lots of unhappiness there... then.. all those canvassings... went chingay helpout..orientation help out... and not forgetting.. the memorable nite which we had our topo training sessions...trip to shell (pulau bukom)... my mom's fall.. the lots n lots of uncleared housework waiting for me to do tt period of time.. bunking over at my sis place.. 'referee' for the ntu surf n sweat..kt's moodswing(twice this sem...crazy)...gym n game session with tito peeps.. ben's bdae.. the hectic week wtih two presentations n two quizzes n 1 assignment to do... haha... the fun we had during labwork..c27 is actually quite fun to be with..think im happier in this class rather than last sem.. perhaps is the tito peeps inside tt im more familier with(sometimes i can onli b noisy with those tt im closer with)...acty.. not only the tito peeps.. like the omaha grp... clarence they all.. provides lots of entertainment in class..he really has a inborn sense of humour.. haha..and lastly.. the scary 23 AUs this sem(most year 1s take less than 20 AUs)... surprisingly im still surviving here.. 4 mths.. seems to pass so fast.. and its now over! tho again..din really do well like wat i aim b4 sch starts.. but.. seems like i really did lots of things in such a short time... haha.. wellz.. think i shud go n touch on thermo now.. exams is less than a week away.. i really hope to get good grades this time.. focus! and u'll achieve what u're aiming for! learnt this during the telemarketing times.. n it was proven to b true tt time... hope this will work on me now!
last paper is on 28th april.. pple.. jio me out after tt day k! hahah... acty somehow.. i really miss the gers from 66.. this sem is so busy tt its so hard for us to coordinate a good time to meet up... yeap.. back to mugging mode now! three more weeks to sakae..holidae.. camps... ktvs... and vball!!!!!
very disappointed with my performance last week.. sighz.. mess up with my maths n bio test last week.. really hate the feeling when... u noe tt the qtn they gave u is just from the tutorial and... u can get stuck there... sianz... mental block again.. i really hate this kind of feeling.. u just dunno where to start.. think this sem i gonna mess it all up again.. one more week to the big exams.. n im still piaing hard to study for the coming week quiz.. can feel tt im running away again..dun even noe where n how to start.. sighz.. i must really pick myself up.. real soon...