today is friday!!!! hahahhaa..one of the hapiest days i have cos.. there is no tutorial! hahha.. genetics is really very er xin.. haha.. have been stoning in teh lecture the whole day and the feeling of i-dunno-wat-are-they-totally is back again! kaoz... but at least i know for now.. what type of subjects is really those tt i like.. tho now.. at uni its quite late to make exposure to diff subs.. but at least.. i did try on this field..at least i gave it a try.. or else.. perhaps in my lifetime.. i wun even ouch a single bit on bio.. haha.. i'm still glad that i chose this fac.. tho all the stuff are sometimes way too much for me... but i nt those who will easily say die.. everything happen has got its reasons..
since physical chem quiz on wed.. my brain has been so drained up.. to the extent i dun feel like studyin anything.. after yesterday we told grace that we not goin for training anymore, went to study with jun after dinner and bunk at her hall.. but still.. i dunno wat im studying.. five hours in the reading room.. are all wasted lo.. sighz...
today's bio mcq..was ok lah... tho..99% is a game of tikamin.. hahah.. but i think my luck is quite good.. cos after the quiz when i compare ans with clarice(who got bio backgrd lah) some i tikam correct.. hahhaz... after mass balance went to can 3 to makan with kt qx clarice huilin(tho she left after makan).. linda went back hall cos her fren goin over to party at her room.. after tt went to hall 3 reading room 'study'.. in the end we sat ard tokin cock.. cos after the test on wed.. really no more energy laioz.. it was quite fun lah! haha.. had a good laff when kt trying to act how everyone in our tito behaves.. haha.. especially huilin part.. si bei gay loh! haha.. think he really watch too much zhou xing chi show already.. siao siao liaoz.. so we high until go lect lo.. then we go lect st away stone there liao... hahaz..
so i the end our grp of pple decided not to go for the interview le! haha.. we'll join as seniors attached! decided le... haha.. duno why.. recently i'm quite scared of commitments.. and worst.. routine stuff...oh no.. does this mean tt i've changed? ! hahah.. duno leh..
yupz.. so now my hair has dried up! gonna sleep liaoz! wah.. finally.. miss my bed.. hahah
hmmz..today made quite a big decision today... decided not to join vball in ntu liaoz..cos sandy n i both agree that we are coping not very well in skool..basically fail all my tests lah..and nex sem when com starts.. we'll b more busy.. but we got 23 AUs! so.. its better not to join now rather then nex sem we really cannot make it le but coach already x diao pple..(kaoz..joy n peijun fighting...hahhaa..)
n..i'm joining the song singing competition impresario...solo..first time joining lehz..abit kan cheong...see how lah..hopefully i wun have stage fright.. hahaa
tml i'm going for the foc interview! hahaz.. doin something diff this time.. quite exciting.. hahha...hopsfully can pass the interview with clarice! then we can go play together laioz... yeaz!
today went for physical chem lect only.. cos teh tutor cancel our bio tutorial.. which i dunno why..if not becos of the test.. i wun go skool one lo.. sianz... the paper was qutie ok lah.. but think i never sleep enough... i skip qtns.. win liao loh... hopefully can just pass this test... hope so...
fri is the interview for scbe foc sub com... half hearted lehz.. dunno whether to go or not.. if i go.. will be tryin for welfare... even told clarice what i've planned for the interview... hahah...
scenario interviewer:"what makes u so confident that you can enter this com?" me:" take a look at me..a picture speaks a thousand words.. i can guarantee i can provide very good welfare for the freshies..." hahha.. i noe its lame lah.. but i bet they confirm will take me in one lo.. after i say tt.. haha..crapz...
so... duno whether i should go or not lehz! haha.. wanna join in the fun and everything.. but i dun like to do paper work.. like. come out with a draft... proposal...blah blah.. and its not as if i can cope very well now.. still struggling alot.. somemore in vball.. wonder if i can cope... but.. its another type of experience..yea..maybe nex time.. when i go for job interview i got something else other than vball to impress my boss rite.. haha.. wellz.. its friday.. we shall see to it...
and yesterday's lab work is so xiong! something related to heat conduction... the experiement itself its ok lah.. very boring i can say but the theory part.. its so eeeee lohz... but the lab instructor is farnie.. think he's from MAE dunno which year student.. its like we are all in a rush to go home(cos the nex day which is today we got a test).. he's late.. and the way he start the lab is so diff from other pple lah... "so how's the recess?" this was teh first qtn.. the whole lab grp got leng diao lohz.. then he carried on like.. wellz... exam is like 1 mth later and hols is like one and a half mth later! he's so enthu abt hol lah... already start to count down liao... tehn.. he start to intro abt himself.. and he take out the attendence and say.."wel.. i think i sould know u all better.." and he started to call out our names and blah blah... he really thought tt he is our form teacher! even the tutor in charge of our class is not so.. erm enthu to know us.. and so...... he can drag drag drag till... half an hour.. then he start on the experiment.. sian boh.. everyone is so dead and he can still tok in his own world.. qingxi nearly killed him lah.. haha.. then till the min report part.. wah the theory was quite hard to understand.. and noe wat.. he says we can give ourselves a clap if we understand 70% of the theory.. cos onli mae peeps will do this in the fourth of third year.. and.. we.. as year one are doin this!!! then he sae we are the jing ying.. so by right should be the brighter ones.. dotz... mi? jing ying.. wah.. m i in the wrong fac notz.. sighz.. but should at least find myself fortunate that i'm not doing formal report on this lab.. or else i really cry out one.. hahhaa.. heng ahz....
qingxi and koon thye are going to join this talent time thingy organise by ntu.. but its nationwhide lehz.. hahaha.. wonder whether should i join the solo or not leh.. hahha.. go n play play horz.. the grp singing maybe jio sandy.. hahha.. or grp with kt and qx.. shall discuss this with sandy see what's her decision... hahah..
and fir is bio test! sianzz... genetics... borrowed qx book n photocopy and they are like so thick lah! wonder whether i can study finish or not.. wah.. bio is really.. alot loh! chamm... and they all reminded me that one mth later it be exams le! oh no! my first paper is 7 nov.. maths.. my ah beng tuitee oso have emaths paper 1 on that day.. haha.. quite funny i think.. same day same topic.. wah kaoz.. haha.. think after mon's econs test i better start abit.. but think i will be busy chasing tutorial.. no matter hwo oso like cannot finsih leh..sian...
oh.. and my classw there's this girl who loves mayday too! hahha.. and i heard their concert tix are gonna on sale soon! it should be ard expo tt area.. yea.. i wanna go! heh... it'll b so fun lah!
k..shall start on genetics now.. tml will b impossible for me to study cos having frenly with american skool...sianz... wonder when they will stop training.. hopefully its soon.. or else...i really dun dare to think of the consequences....must not da bao k! must pscho myself..
just got back the results for mass balance.. hmmz.. 12 upon 30... flunk it badly.. average was 16+ so i'm way below average... sad lehz... hope i dun da bao this module.. cos its so sian! haiz...cos nex sem got more AU and this will just add on to my burden...
everyone seem quite stressed up today.. din tok alot to alo of pple... wellz.. think its because of the wed physical chem test.,,.. which stands.. according to jacqueline..40% of overall..40?! tt means its near 50%.. so ex lah! but all the formulas jumbled up in my head liao... wed will be the day le.. sianz...
oh and today in tutorial class the pple niao chong meng and jasmine together whoa.. hahha.. scandalous.. but qingxi n i both agree that they got the couple face(oh no..does tt mean my future husband wun be shuai? cis we have to get the fu qi lian mah...)... hahah.. so on liao lah.. see how they develope.. at first we still tot he n huay ping scandal scandal lah..in the end..ahem.. hahha.. k..shal study physical chem now..shall not b too bothered by mass balance.. tho... i feel quite sad lah...sianz...
wah...i'm sooooo...tired! only 5 pple went for training..aline, xinhui wanyu me and later yuhong n daniel came... had trainining on A ball.. lim's training aline to set a ball and get use to us... basically we can't do much lah.. cos the number of ppple is really jialat... yea..tho training end ard 6 plus.. but i felt more tired than the past trainings.. haha..
wellz.. yesterdae had skool as usual... wonder why i become more n more high after hols .. hopefully linda they all dun find me irritatin.. tho i like to play with her.. hahha.. tok crap to her... i feel that we can communicate quite well.. haha.. maybe cos our bdaes are so near each other.. seriously, i really believe that those who's bdaes lie near each other can communicate better.. horoscopes sometimes play a part too.. hahah.. some pple may feel tt i abit fei lah... haha. but... we cannot rely too much alot on horoscopes oso lah.. tho i believe it..(oh yea... yi lu xiang bei on 933) then she told me some things abt relationships.. hmm.. it was from one of her friends... yah.. A(ger) likes B(guy) and the feeling is mutual... and the guy keeps on telling her tt he likes her tho they are not together yet.. yah.. so for quite sometime.. the ger likes the guy too... then suddenly.. she found out tt he has a gf! and it was quite recent tt he said tt he likes her! so its something tt is goin on concurrently.. yea... so linda was quite bothered by this lah... cos.. she's afraid tt this may happen on her.. yah... so.. with my zero experience in relationships... i tried to convince her tt not all guys are like this... but sometimes its true lah.. even our fren qingxi(nuthing against him) oso admit tt alot of guys like to treat alot of gers very nice... let them like him..and eventually he PICKS one out of them... sianz...hmmz... so linda was quite doubtful abt this person lah..whom she is close to 100% in liking him le.. yupz.. sadz.. can't help her much oso cos.. i dunno him well personally... but what ever it is... to any guys tt are reading this(which i guess not many)... pls dun treat a ger too well(ok..but if u treat her.. just show actions tt.. hmm..its out of frenship...) if u dun like her or u are already in a relationship... and pls... dun sae that u like her when u are with someone else already... its really very hurting for gers...
hmmz... and he sat in front of us yesterday... haha.. and wellz.. at the end of lecture while going back.. haha.. he said bye to me... hohoz.. clarice said tt i must be very happy.. haha.. ok lahand i figured out why i got crush on him le.... cos.. his behavious is really like some i like back in sec skool! not bad.. but... how i wish i'm shorter and smaller in size! cos in this state.. its really impossible for him to like me.. and i oso want taller ones.. haha.. so.. i concluded tt.. this is just a passing crush(like wat kuan had always said).. it'll soon be over.. yea.. somemore i guess he must like this ger.. hmmz... they both got nice eyes.. hhaha.. quite a compaitable couple... yupz.. come to think of that..its really been a long long time tt i will keep a look out for someone.. or radar.. in sch.. haha.. and i wanna stress.. i'm not despo ok! haha.. just wanna keep myself entertained.. and i guesss.. my personality does not suit me to go into a relationship..maybe for now.... i just can't be bothered lahz.. and yea... no one will like me onez lah(sometimes its quite good lah..cos no need to think too much).. haha.. and i'm quite happy with present state... yupz..
oh no.. and.. there are three tests the coming week! physical chem, physics, and bio! OH NO! but i'm so tired now.. maybe i should pon one of the traingins.. haha.. (sianz..cyndi's da da da on 933.. kaoz) oh... and i heard tt our sch is going to organise talent time mayeb nex sem! hahha.. gonna join with koon thye and qingxi.. hahha... dun care lo.. willdrag them in with me one.. hahha.. cos ownself join si bei sian.. who noes.. the three of us will be top three... hahhahaha... day dreaming again.. but at least not yaya.. not like tt koonthye who ask me ..if he n qingxi join as duet will they enter not... and without giving me a chance to say anything.. he happily happily say that they will stand a great chance.. talk cock one leh! kk.. shall stop now.. studying time!..sian.. really must act enthu abt studies lah...
three days have passed since the starting of school... wellz... being able to see the peeps in sch was quite good lah... but still .. hahha.. its so tiring... dunno why i feel like complaining in every entry..sianz.. hwo i wish..ntu is in tp.. hahah... wait long long loh.. hahaah
mon was a long long day.. but funny tho.. met koon thye and sis at the same time! hahah... normally i wun even meet any of them onez.. wat a funny way to start my term.. had wang kean's lecture and 1002 lect in the morning.. and i'm really totally lost in energy balance.. sianz.. physics... still ok cos learn before but.... oh no... showing symtoms of getting lost.. hahah.. cannot lah... physics is like the onli sub tt i took b4 n if i'm lost in this.. i will nto have any time to do other stuff laio.. went to innovation centre to hand up lab report.. and suddenly.. i realise i'm the only ger.. funny situation..cos normally still got clarice and co.. but lucky no awkward situations lah.. hengz.. waited with ben to take shuttle bus to hall 2 cos meetig joy they all first b4 training... but its like so long lah.. and he offered to walk to hall two with me(no wodner last time he council one...so helpful).. aiyoh.. lucky the bus came before i decide anything.. cos i will feel very bad lah.. its not near to hall two lo..from innovation centre..had training at src... hmmz.. abit sian over there.. hahah.. duno why... maybe no chance to pair to joy to play my A ball.. hahah... no have the kuai gan u see... yea.. and he ask us to do rolling lah.. its the mel's way.. haha.. but i still cannot get the technique... all the blue balck come out liao lohz..went to bunk their room after traiing
tue was another tiring day.. walk from hall two to north spine.. but after i came out of n3, i suddenly become so lost.. haha.. seriously this is the first time i'm so lost leh.. hahha... i walk one whoel round.. till i saw can A which is the onli landmark i have.. till then i can recognise my way to library to print stuff..sianz..hao bu rong yi its my turn to print then my cash card got prob..so got to walk tolee wee nam lib to buy a new one..in the end din even get to print the notes out... lab work was quite ok lah... pendulum n momentum stuff..but my calculator was quite weird... ans is always so diff tho i press correctly lo... wah.. then qx had to double chek the calculations... not tt lost but sian lah.. then went for tuition... at first dunno wat to say.. cos i thought sun i was qutie fierce..in the end it turn out ok leh.. aiyoh.. hopefully he can pass lehz... really worried for him..
then today.. its physical chem.. yi da qing zao must listen to him nian liao loh.. he is really really monotonous and there's not punctuation is his speech one leh.. fell asleep twice unknowingly.. haha.. if it wasn't my frens who call me up..i think i will definitely sleep till the end of lect.. haiyohz.. then genetics tutorial after tt.. my mind got blank throughout the tutorial.. sianz... in the end went to lib to fotocopy soem of the text instead.. cos textbooks are really so ex! dun wanna buy any la... aiyohz.. no money liaoz..kk..shall stop now.. wat a boring entry rite.. shall go read laplace notes... hopefully i understnad.. or else cannto do tutorial le!
oh no.. time is running out.. and looking back.. wat have i been doing this week... i actually did no tutorials and my lab report is still undone... sianz... still cannot find the effect of toxins on red blood cell... wonder if its my awy of finding info wrong... cos i realise ive been looking at the wrong materials and half of my time is spent on reading... erm... fei stuff n things tt i dun even understand...
shall list out the things tt i'm supposed to do over the hols.. whicherm.. i've done almost nuthing...
1. read bio notes(chapter 11 n 12 n the whole of genetics which i dun even understand what he is talking abt.. busy laughing cos he lok like some..disney character.. he must have done some part time in the pei ying for the disney character..haha..lame)
2. three bio tutorials(n i dun even noe wat chapters they are on)
3.mass balance notes(wanna restudy cos i was quite disappointed in my test...)
4. three mass balance tutorials..
5. redo the test qtn
6. catch up on the other previous bio notes... 10 chapters... to memorise
7. laplace notes... its maths... lots of qtn marks while listening to teh shuai lecturer.. tim tan
8. first n second ODE ...practice qtns!
9. engineering physics... din do tutorials at all...
10. physical chem notes... i pon 3 lect le... think they are at page 70+ n my notes are all still... so clean...
11. 3 physical chem tutorial
12. econs... look at the recorded lect
13. do econs hmwk! which wun b easy.. cos macro has started n i din take until macro
14. lab report! stuck at the qtn part... cannot find the info... i really wonder why... sianz... tot im nearing to the finishing line.. but i'm wrong...
ok... seems like its really alot of things to do... over two days... but... got training later on... going out with sis later on... ah beng tuition tomolo morning... o levels coming but.... going ktv with xx tomolo... its something i like n i must go cos i noe within the comin two mths i wun be goin for any of these...
tho there are so many things to do... but i cannot tahan so long lehz.. must really ask the ah boy opp me how he study one... he can always tahan till 4 plus even tho he is a normal jc student... tt means everyday must wake up early.. how he do it onez...
so school is starting in one plus day time.. n starting the sch will b training on mon.. how to chiong hmwk?! lab on tue... but i staying at ah joy's place.. so tt means by tomolo i must finsih lab report... wah.. how can dun stress...
my plan for the coming two mths... to go over to joy's place after each training.. so i wun waste time travelling... hopefully i can do something constructive... shud i or shud i not come out with a schedule? will i be able to follow it? cos i think its starting to b a mess liaoz...
but still.. managed to did quite a few things i like in this recess... go back for maf! see the teachers...met kuan... meeting xx... met jarnei... met tyy... those tt not so easy spot one at least can meet... too bad cannot see mich sharon neo n aining they all... sighz... why is recess so short... hopefully during tt one mth break can go out with them... wah...
so... one n a half mth to big exams... one week to physical chem test(30% ..thanks leh... ) two weeks to econs test.... n finally..two mths to big break! haha.. think i look forward for the break! wah... sad life... so the routine life is gonna begin in two days time...toapayoh-> boon lay->queueing for 179-late for lect->din do tutorial->dun understand lecturer->coffee->rushing for tutorial->lost in lab->finding a place in canteens->dunno wat to eat->queing up for food->waiting for lesson but dun feel like doing anything->telling frens how stressed i m but still manage to laff->listening to how stress clarice is->listening to how linda can still sleep so early everyday->seeing nep sleep during lects->sandy how she is lagging from work->qingxi n longhui->listening to koonthye's cold jokes->vball->waiting for 179->boon lay-> toapayoh->sleep ..ok..to more mths.. just two more mths.. i will survive.. haha
feel very bad nt goin training today.. but... i din clear anything which is harder to clear when school reopens... i do not wan to da bao...sorry to all...
haha.. my withdrawal symtom for work is back again.. hahah.. got tons and tons of work but still.. now i'm blogging.. hahah.. sad boh... this week is recess for us...what they say is recess lah.. but i think its a time for us to chiong all our work lo.. tho 3 days have passed.. i've not been doing anything.. chamm lah.. got so many tutorials which i need to catch up.. and yesterday qingxi mention tt exam is abt 2 mths later.. hmmz.. 2 mths sounds long.. but then.. it really strikes me.. cos time is running out.. somemore there is bio... which requires lots and lots of memorising.. but now.. i onli got the time to understand.. sian... and there is this lab report.. i'm onli at the objective part which is like taking cock lah.. the body is the most impt one cos it requires research.. aiyohz.. 10 plus pages.. how to come up with all these.. sianz... and tomolo nite gona go for tuition..thur nite training fri nite go out with kuan...sat training.. sun maybe ktv... hmmz... tt means i got like... only two days to do my work!! oh no... the more i think of it the more i fumble.. sian... why must they be like this...
so sat we went for maf... quite sad lah.. cos auntie gang not alot pple go... yeeling with zhongjie.. xx with huang cheng pple... sharon neo not in singapore.. mich busy with her work.. then onli me jarnei and tyy.. very few lah.. hmm... dunno leh.. think it will b better if we go for the mass dance.. but still i was quite happy lah... cos can see alot pple.. hahha.. like mrs lee.. very long din tok to her le! hahah... but she still can auntie with us.. haha.. then chan chan with mulan very scandalous.. but of cos.. tyy is back to her siaming of mr xxx.. hahha.. nearly bump into someone while we siam with her la.. wait tt person tot i stalk him again.. but im innocent one lo! hahha.. i dun even noe he is there can... tyy's fault lah...took foto with my tutorial mate.. hahah.. not bad lookin tho he quite short..still waiting for jarnei to send me.. but then.. too bad lah.. not close with him one.. neber even tok much to him... suan liaoz.. somemore.. hahah.. i think he like this ger in my tutorial grp oso.. my yan guang for theese is proven.. when i can tell this person like that persoin.. most of the time its correct..hahah...no chance lah...hahha then jarnei left early.. cos the nex day she got to go church.. yup.. left with me and tyy onli.. wah .. is this call sian or sian.. hahah.. then jarnei called me.. hahah.. she sae jsp is with her now.. i like.. dotz(tho sometimes i will miss him lah.. sometimes quite hard to find such uncle pple) hahah.. then who noes jarnei passed the fone to him leh! hahha... then he ask me to come take foto wtih him.. at first i wanted to go one leh.. haha.. cos very long din tok to him le mah... but then.. after thinking.. suan liao lah.. he at the bridge liao.. so far.. as if i wanna ask tehm to wait for me.. of cos dun wan rite.. somemore.. yah.. if i go he confirm niao me one...hahha..so i chose not to go lo... we din stay in skool for long lah.. bought ice cream.. wah.. like last time after lesson like that.. ice cream is a xiang shou lohz.. haha.. then we went over cos we decided to go tp mac tok mah...at first i tot jsp and co should have left lah... tyy still confirm with me tt the person at the bus stop is not him,,, hahha.. dotz lehz.. i still agree with her lah.. hahha.. who knows... 154 come....hhahah.. we are wrong.,, we are so gong lahz... why jsp neber take his fren with him one.. hahah..
whatever it is.. i felt quite happy on that day lah.. wonder is it because i quite miss hc... hahaha.. it will be better if auntie gang all gather ard the class bench.. miss that feeling.. but then that day our class bench was surrounded by..a grp of i-dun-even-noe-who-are-they pple.. yah.. so neber go there n sit down.. sadz...somehow... i really miss those days... still.. i enjoy my j1 MAF the most... think that day was one of my happiest days... really..
well wellz... its been like so long tt i update my blog le.. haha.. think its the longest time that i had not blog anything b4... perhaps life is getting busier n busier for me.. perhaps.. sometimes i just dun really know what i should blog abt.. log in a couple of times but just dunno wat to write..
so school has already started for a mth.. time really flies.. can't imagine now i'm so part of ntu laioz.. just a couple of months ago i just cannto imagine how will i turn out to b like.. wellz.. its abit hard for me to go back to studies.. after 7 mths of rest and work..its like suddenly u ask me to go abck to mugging.. hmm.. i forgot how to study.. hah.. it sounds funny lah.. but i think it really applies on me..
tho its onli four weeks.. it seems like i've been mugging alot.. dun rem myself studying so hard in jc b4 except for a levels.. even a levels i can sleep in peace without finsih studyingmy work.. but now.. things are abt the same.. however.. no matter how i catch.. how i run.. i can stil lag two tutorials for each module.. yah.. i dun deny tt the stress is there.. but seriously.. from wat i see .. think im the most slack and heck care things one.. maybe this is my attitude so tt's y i cannot work as efficiently as other pple.. last week had bio test.. think i gonna flunk all.. wonder why shuld they accept me.. cos i got really no prior bio knowledge.. not even in sec 3.. its really not easy.. but giving up is not wat i like to do... tt's not me.. i can do it onez.. luckily frenz still manage to gif me a break from all these.. tho some of the jokes are really...super duper cold... haha.. really wanna thank them sometimes.. haha
then. i have decided to join ivp.. tho they are training 2 days per week...and for each training i will reach hm ard 11 plus to 12... but..i realise after i play.. i have more motivations to carry on with my work.. somehow.. u have to do things tt make u really happy to push u go further.. now i really understand this theory..
yah basically tt's all lah.. haha.. tho i like din type much things here... one more week to break! and maf! haha.. loojking forward for tt day to come!