hey girl.. just saw your blog.. wanted to sms you but i guess that it will take abt 5 smses to reach you...so i guess i gonna type in here...
regarding your health... pls pls take care of yourself! I guess this year isn't a good year for all of us.. like me.. i just fainted three weeks ago again .. tt will strike a record of 2-3 times this year... you must not overtake my record ok! =) try to eat healthy and slp early k! i guess maybe we shd cut down our intake of sour stuff oso.. hahaz.. can't give any constructive reccomendation since i dun study medicine.. hope that maybe its just a sudden break down of the immune system due to our hectic lifestyle... and everything shall be fine from today onwards!
and regarding heh.. sighz.. din noe that i can't get to see him in his tank b4 he left this world...but dun be sad kuan.. i guess heh has passed away due to old age? you've done your best in helping him.. i guess he will appreciate it... n like what i always like to say.. everything happens for a reason.. you've got heh during one of u most darkest period of time.. and life does change for the better after this (tho with all the hassle but i guess u also enjoyed this process somehow)..so now.. with heh's departure.. perhaps other things will happen.. happier things and events... so hope tt you'll get over it soon... you should be glad that your paths have crossed(like what you've said).. and be happy that you've let heh experience a more exciting life.. at least i guess his life cycle is grow up in river-got caught-in the pond in bottle tree park- got caught- your house.. this is definitely better than staying in the river or perhaps ending up as a dish on some dinner table.. yeapz..
so jiayou kuan! things will get better after all these things... just like high and low tide.. the low tide will be right after the high and what reveals under are all the lovely seashells! cherish the good times, pick up and appreciate whatever nice seashells you can find! (aww..i hate my english and my weird analogy.. but you get what im trying to say right!).. good things will happen soon and stay cheerful! =)
Why is it so that everytime after I managed to overlook your competitiveness and all the lies given, I will always happen to find out more by chance. So are there more lies created that weren't even uncovered?
Why is it so that messages only come in only when you needed help in assignments and some technical stuff? And not when I was terribly sick or just fainted?
Why is it so that when I needed some help from you and there's not even a sincere reply?
Why is it so that after certain issues you began to explain yourselve with 101 stories? Is it just a pure sharing session or is a story(I do not know if they are true or not) with intent?
Sometimes I do wonder, do you see me as a friend or one of your competitors? Or am I a buddy or just an acquaintance?
I do not need my friends to tell me everything that they have done or going to do. But I do not see any point in making up lies to hide whatever you are doing. Is it competitiveness? Is it inconfidence? Or is it pure selfishness? No matter how, I'm sorry to say that I can no longer believe fully in each and single words that you say. I will no longer give in fully anymore. I guess this is similar like the boy who cried wolf. And I believe that it will take alot of time for me to overlook everything and give my trust to you fully as a friend. Perhaps things are better when academic stuffs are not involved. That is when you still look me up as a friend after graduation(cos I guess I will no longer be of use to you after that time).
If you can never ever return your home after this visit, what are the things that you will take along with you given only 10 minutes?
Was watching news and one of the world's largest bank is going to cut down 50,000 jobs. It was so prestigious back in less than 3 years time. Things do change real fast, so fast that sometimes you can't really explain why.
Also, was talking to clar about how places being choked up by so much more pple now. I guess this is the transformation of Singapore towards a City like New York, Tokyo, Hong Kong. So we are the generation that gets to witness this change, fortunately and unfortunately. Even thinking back to 5 years ago, the place that we live then is much different now.
Oh wellz, quite a random post. Obviously its a slight escapade from revision.
safety: neverending readings adv rxn: tons of formula E n S: 0 mood to study time left to the next paper: 36h Current state: restless..perhaps i need some rope to tie me down
just as I thought that working and schling pple may have nothing to say anymore.. i guess im wrong... it feels nice to be nuaing ard with u peeps.. missing ah wei's action tho.. n lastly.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY~!! its the 9th bdae tt we are celebrating together.. =D
and mae baked this lovely cake for our dear joy! so sweet~~
1 down and 4 more to go... a bad start of the day.. for the first time in exams.. train broke down and had to take a cab down from commonwealth.. luckily got clar and ml.. else will be wasting money on cab fare.. the paper wasn't hard.. but oh wellz.. lots of careless mistakes.. guess i wun do well in this mod cos of the curve thingy... sometimes its very irritating that someone tells you that he/she do not know everything and she anyhow do and yet she's got everything right.. someone who tells you tt she do not care abt small marks and yet asking ard their answers... why cant they just tell you how they feel.. what's the point of throwing all the smoke bombs like as if he/she do not care and yet they mind each and single points alot? I hate pple who lies actually..and I do not see any point in lying to me.. I'm not any good competitor.. and i do not care whether you've studied or not and whether you've got it right or wrong.. but i jus cannot stand pple not meaning what they say.. zzzzzz
was mugging in sch and went to can 2 to have dinner with clar and yanni...and suddenly.. i've realised that oh wow.. i've been in this place for 3 years plus.. each and every corner were memories which I've nv tot that I will miss them now.. i guess i was really too tired and stressed then...
first was blk 4.. seems to be so quiet, clean n proper now.. tho i've been always busy with my assignments.. i do enjoy the times when liangs n peifang whine and sing out loud to the court.. how we sang 最长的电影 at our doors like those who are drunk.. the dinners and the steam boat.. i was secretly loving the CNY decors with all the ang pao lanterns and everything.. now.. looking from L1.. the whole level seem to be so plain and quiet.. things change fast.. it was less than a year since then...
then its the court.. the cat was lying in the middle of the court as usual.. but the pple were gone.. the canteen is filled with all the unfamilier and young faces.. tt's the pt of time when i realise.. oh im a yr 4 auntie already.. and i really miss those times when we share one big plate of fried rice and how i watch them fight for the char siew.. oh manz..
aft dinner.. took a walk with clar to the can a bustop instead of taking the bus at the can2 stop directly.. i really love the night walks in ntu.. so cool, breezy with all the fresh air... so many things have changed.. but i'm glad that i've made a good friend who managed to walk with me side by side for all these years... i miss those days when we jus sit at the adm side(there wasn't alot of pple then, now its so populated even its during the night time)... i really wonder with this busy schedule tt we have.. when will be the next time that we can sit there and chill...
looking back... in the midst of chionging assignments, projects and quizzes.. the things that we did were really memorable... i can't say that i am very involved in activities other than sch work.. but im happy that throughout my uni years i have done things other than academic stuff...
somehow..i guess i've changed.. and i've aged over the years... but still one thing that hasn't changed.. tt's my emoness.. oh wellz.. i think its probably due to the examination season... and this blog has survived for 4+ years! oh manz.. its really qt interesting at times to look back wat are the things that i was saying at tt time.. some things were really qt silly tho..