sighz..bio is affecting me tho im tryng to act normal for the whole day... disappointed with myself... so wat's so great abt studying the whole day n studyin till 3 at nite n wake up at 7 in the morning? and i still get the all beta alpha linkages mixed up.. i tot tt will b qtn to pull my marks up.. wth.. all the cycles.. enzymes.. products.. until i got them all jumbled up together.. so what if i start like start 1 week ago.. to pple its chicken feet while to me.. im not performing again..sometimes i do really envy those with bio background in jc.. they can just build on from there.. while me.. started from nothing--not even sec sch bio.. is learning wat is more than the jc pple are.. sighz.. perhaps their prerequisite should be jc bio.. in tt case i wun be able to get in.. and there.. it saves all the trouble.. like me.. staying hopeful.. studying hard.. but in return gets nothing from it.. in the end become sad again.. getting sick of it.. each sem.. its this feeling.. disappointments and disappointments and nothing else.. i really hate the feeling of.. when its just filling in the blanks..and i still duno wat to write.. pls dun let this be the sub tt i bao... i dun wanna bao anything.. like this sem with onli 21 AUs i can struggle like mad... why do i get myselfin this situation...... or maybe its my fault for not being consistent before uni... or maybe its my fault to get myself in this faculty...
backk..from computing exams... sighz... tho kwak gave hints.. but i think i still chui for some of the parts.. n wasted marks manz.. especially at the difference table thingy.. it was a giveaway lo.. n i still spent some time on it ydae.. bad.. old problem is bad again.. like i study le.. duno how to apply.. or forgottt acty i noe how to use this.. sianz...
wellz.. now staying at hall.. super duper sian.. linda went hm again.. haha.. bet its me who kept distracting her tt she cannot concentrate... so now.. bored.. but have to move on cos wed is bio.. chammz..
k..so now he's got somebody in mind.. baa... maybe tt's better.. being frens is still the best policy.. shall conc on my work now! anyway we are of diff worlds.. really..wat was i expecting for.. wat a joke manz.. move on move on move on..
felt like doin some entry.. its realy been a long time that i updated this blog.. haha.. with real entries rather than uploading all the videos.. wellz.. its kindofweird that my blog is dead only after i stay hall... haha.. seem to be more busy after i stayed hall... why why!? haha.. im also not sure.. basically sch had been quite bad these days.. out of the 5 weeks i stay in hall... 4 fri nites ive been stayin over.. cos sat i always have some quiz or some other things like project.. sian ah! totally no life..
sometimes even staying at hall is boring.. or i can say very boring.. tho i may have the time to slp more.. spend less time on travelling.. but.. just felt tt im trapped inside this small area.. seriously one of my happiest times is to meet up with joy they all to have a game of vball.. or somecrappin session.. felt more relax with them at times.. i need a break... sighz...
wellz.. nex week it'll be the start of exams again... sianz... dreaded this everytime.. worst.. there's one more mathematica assignment to hand it! sian sian sian! killin us at this momoent.. n haf ta cope with jap.. but when it comes to compo.. i really duno how to write.. or wat to write leh.. sian.. its just ttt 15 sentences.. why do i find it so hard...
kk.. think my symptom of escapism is back.. shall go n read bio n fluids n computing.. tml gonna practise for jap oral... baaaa... tons of work rising.. sian..
n wellz.. recently.. my feelings for somebody is back again.. hmmz.. maybe im just too lonely in hall ba(my dear roomie is not back yet agaain!) but at times.. i really felt better after talking to him.. but.. we are just from two diff worlds! nah.. its impossible.. n im not his type.. baaaa.. it'll be over soon!but sometimes u get too used to his msges quite oftenly.. it has already become a habit..sadly..
seems like my blog is dead for 2 mths.. haha.. duno what happened to my tagboard oso.. bleah.. no time to care abt it.. wellz.. somebody sent me this video.. touching..