auntie gang to meet for the whole day to play competitive vball again to do sports without knee pain to be happier to go to japan, hk aussie and europe to slim down to go pulau ubin
ok.. kuan said tt wat i hoped is nt going to happen.. hahaha.. i din misinterpret the quote ok.. hahhaa.. wat i wan is diff from wat im doin now... obviously im doing wat other pple are doin now.. leading a normal life.... study then go out.. slp eat play.. hahhaa.. i guess.. the onli thing not to be the most pple described in the quote is to.. go to pluto! hahhaa.. oh crapz
like wat i told a few pple.. my place has got nice scenery.. its esp so when its during sunset... so here it goes
of cos.. some of these photos are very unclear cos im using my old pok pok motorola fone to take it.. it will be much better if its EOS type of camera.. hahhaa....
and today went out to have lunch with one of the doc and of cos colleagues.. and suddenly.. she asked me if im interested in post grad studies... and then she started her story.. borned from msia... she wasn't rich and aft studying uni.. she jus wrote email to all the diff uni at diff places saying tt she wan to do post grad studies... and so.. without noeing much things... she accepted an offer from germany and started to do her post grad studies and it was then slowly she learnt German there and got to know her husband there... then she went to another European cty.. then now in singapore and shes still aiming to go to canada... and she ended off with... if u wanna do certain things.. jus go ahead and dun think too much abt it...
oh wellz.. i was really impressed by her braveness to get out of her comfort zone everytime wanting to try diff things... but somehow there are simply too many things that impedes me from doing many other things tt i wanted to... i wanted to do alot of things but i can't.. there is really no way for me to say i will leave now to seek for a better and colourful life... whenever i see the aged haggard back view of my pa going to work.. whenever i see the wrinkles on my mom's face.. sometimes i was jus so shocked that how time can make many things changes.. indeed.. they've aged alot for the past 10 years..too much n too fast for me to realise in the midst of rushing my assignment and reports and vball...im always scared that i might not be in time to repay wat i've owed them for the past 22 years... it is also one of my dreams to earn my money and drive them(my parents and grandma) to the places they wanted to go to... ok.. i shall stop all these saddenning posts... anw..
miss liang liang n joy has msned me today from SPAIN! so happy to hear from them.. somehow i missed the times in hall when u all come n disturb me.. hahhaa..the whinings and the shoutings and the eat ice times... glad that u all are doin fine there! if u all are reading this post.. rem to kio some yandao spanish guy back to singapore ! hohoz....
and to end off.. today kuan told me abt this author called Oscar Wilde... there is this qt interesting quote by him:
Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone elses opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation
makes some sense to me... i hope im not that most pple.. tho i think my life is really kind of simple....
work tml again! sianzz.... this hols is really boring to me
its been a long time since i've updated.. and sometimes i do really see the difference in my style and the contents tt im talking abt over these years.. and this blog is abt 4 years old.. omg.. i wonder will i close it down one day cos i realise i've not been updating for a long time everytime..
and so..i guess this is the worst hols i ever had.. or maybe.. i had too much fun in the past.. that things feel jus weird when nothing more interesting than wat i did in the past happen..
this hols was oso not as happy as ever i guess... played zero vball.. or i can say.. spiked zero balls.. or had zero rallies... sometimes u jus feel so weird.. and although many says tt u can live without vball.. it takes time for my knee to heel.. but i guess by the time it heels.. i can nv spike the kind of ball i used to play... and ydae while refereeing a match in siloso.. there is this match in which two ex jj gers are playing with this grp of jap gers... this is jus some simple matches.. and one of them knee got problem while the other one sprained her leg... but.. despite all these.. they managed to finsh the set..and match.. and they even managed to go to the nex match without any break... its jus a small competition.. u can have it the nex year and yet they played it like the last game they will ever have.. the fightin spirit in them.. which is lacking in me makes me realise... why they are able to win one of the year's A division gers championship... even tho they may not be the best in skills.. its their mind tt is different from the others..
and soon.. mid june is approaching.. n some pple will be back soon... i guess things will get qt diff... actually i noe tt i enjoyed last sem is because of the disappearance of some pple... oh wellz.. how i hope things jus stayed like this.. i felt very fortunate tt i got to know new pple for the past 1 year... it was really one of my happiest moments tho.. and i guess.. this is also part of the reason why im not enjoying the hols..when u had too much fun in sch term.. when everything stops in hols n no new things are up.. it really shows the diff....
oh wellz.. hasn't been feeling qt happy these days... it seems like nothing good really happens to me.. or maybe the only better thing is tt i may have secured my fyp and my last sem's result i din get a C(which is not so terrific too)... n something which i need to sort out my mind.. kuan told me tt sometimes im jus too stubborn tt i tend to blaff myself.. like i noe abt something but i manage myself not to believe it everytime.. n then again... wat i can sense is really the truth.. then i will upset myself again.. so currently im still searchin for a way to settle it myself..
watch sex and the city last fri with ning and joel..felt tt it was qt nice..most probably is becos i din watch the drama.. cos kuan said tt the story went in qt a wrong direction as the drama... but wat touched me is the frenship between the four of them.. whcih makes me wonder.. will the type of frenship be true for me and my frens.. i duno if its the fact tt we have grown up n we have so many other things to do... its really harder to get everyone together or let everyone stay together for a longer time.. sometimes i really missed those times.. when we can jus rot.. eat talk.. spend the whole day doing nothing together... its really so impossible now... everyone jus ask.. 'meet.. for wat?do wat? how come this n tt.. im going to leave early.. maybe i can come..u all enjoy urself..' all these things.. im not angry abt this cos its really one's choice in these matters... but sometimes its jus qt disheartening.. to get everyone out is already a big problem.. and if we wanna get everyone out it has got to be like 1 year later.. i really missed the hols in jc.. i guess things will get worst when everyone having a full time job.. even goin out is a chore.. sighz...
n once again on a random note.. i'm defeated by the fact tt size and looks does matter in this world.. regardless of how i psycho myself tt it may not be true and there can be exceptions...